Orexis

Today I ate :
1.5 liter of mineral water
2 cups of organic coffee
Coke zero
¼ avocado
¼ chickpea salad
¼ multi-grain bread roll
¼ cup raw veggies

Today I decided it was ¼ cup day. I don’t have a particular reason. 0.25 is such a nice number.

Today I am wearing a size 3 levi’s jeans and they are falling off my ass.

I told my father about my sprained wrist and he said: “Oh yeah, it looks pretty bad.” He touched lightly my blue wrist, pointing at a big bump. “That’s my wrist bone, dad.” He looked at me in silence.

I am turning into a weird person, I think. When I look at myself in the mirror, I see this strange girl. I see her flaws, her sickness and I am scared. I been obsessing about my weight lately. I am afraid to gain. To screw my body up…

It sunny outside today. I think I’m going to go for a run with the dog. I need to cleanse myself, to share off the dirt, the fat, the ugliness.